My mood was not great earlier, not that bad either, just bumbling along, could be feeling better.
And then it snowballed and gathered momentum and sped along until suddenly I was feeling really really rubbish, sparking with negativity, jittery, couldn’t keep still, fizzling with baddness, started to hit myself (not hard), uh oh.
Need To Stop This.
I have been trying to channel it into housework with some success. Putting washing away, inefficiently, so I need to run up and down stairs lots. Washing up. Distract my mind and keep me busy and hopefully at least I’ll have something to show for it afterwards.
So, I’ve done some stuff. And I don’t feel so negative. But I still feel charged with energy, a bit like I’ve been drinking energy drinks (I guess, don’t really know), jittery. It’s not nice.
Having some cereal now (well, I had a pasty for breakfast, mixed up day), trying to make sure I’ve eaten. Plus cup of tea.
And then in a moment I have to go and sit around in a waiting room to try and get an appt with the dr today otherwise I’ll run out of tablets on Sunday. Sitting in waiting room does not sound fun. I might actually take headphones (not like me) as I don’t fancy knitting. Hmm.
And not sure what I’m going to say when she asks me how I am. Hence this writing.
Still not sure.